Mind is racing

Just laying here...can't sleep. Looking at two precious guys sleeping peacefully wondering 1)why can't I sleep so easily 2)this world is so chaotic. People are torn into so many directions that it hurts. I can't be the only one who feels this way? Anyone who knows me knows how much I love my job. It's something I'm passionate about and called to So, this is definitely not a complaint but rather a concern. People have so much "stuff" to do. We are all too busy to have real, meaningful relationships anymore. It's sad but true. Just this week already I've been reminded how broken this world is because of over-committing ourselves and not taking the time to breathe life into our relationships. I had a "pastor" yesterday, who didn't know me, chew me out on the phone. With her ugly tone, she tried everything she could think of to put me in my place. I knew she had to be dealing with something big since she was being so hateful to a mere stranger. It wasn't hard to tell she was dealing with bitterness, anger, and confusion. Those things are not pure, lovely, righteous so they don't come from God. We can't assume "pastors" have it all together and are exempt from accountability. We can't forsake them when they need ministering to. We can't just "take their word for it" because sometimes they're wrong. We must search the truth for ourselves. The scariest thing we can do is believe a "pastor" is correct on everything they say. Sometimes, because they are human, can get it wrong. Let's seek the truth by living as Christ. He would take time to rest, build meaningful relationships with many, and be slow to anger.